(Click the above link for a story of one woman's intriguing encounter with a white crow)
Christmas Morning with 50 Crows
A few years ago I spent Christmas in a cabin by a lake in the snow country of Arizona. I had just walked away from doing spiritual awakening seminars with a partner. I had to, I needed time for integration. All the 'teaching' and assisting others and the personal energies that had been activated in me needed time for settling into my bones and birthing a new me. A whole new side of life had been opening up for me. The 'shadow' side, the 'dark', the subconscious, the mysterious, the side we carefully have tried to contain, hide, pretend is not there in our current model of civilization-hoping somehow that if we ignore it it won't be there. This of course doesn't work. And we reap all kinds of 'wake up calls', diseases, cancer, wars, terrorism, dysfunctional relationships, school shootings, heart disease, depression etc.
So my 'shadow' self had been coming up in my life. The hidden-occluded parts of myself had been triggered and were surfacing for healing-completion-integration. It felt so good! To finally get the real healing going...and scary, and unfamiliar of course. Even though the world labeled me 'depressed' or 'angry' or even 'suicidal' that wasn't my reality. My reality was that I was finally being honest, finally talking real feelings with God, wanting to really know...my Self and God. And He was right there, God sent all kinds of help and assistance in many forms. This is the story of one of those times of real assistance.
Christmas morning I awoke early. My friend was still sleeping and I decided to go for a walk. A snow had fallen. There was that perfect quiet of a Sunday-new snow-early morning and Christmas on top of it. It felt like the whole world was sleeping and I was walking through the brand new world. Absolutely still--quiet. I felt so peaceful.
As I walked down the road it was reminding me of my growing up in Sweden with lots of snow. The Ponderosa Pine was almost the same as the pine trees of my childhood. As I 'crunched' my way down the road I would let my attention expand out, I would 'feel-sense' the whole forest around me. It felt wonderful connecting with Nature again, She's always there, waiting for us to interact with Her again. At a certain point on the road I had a feeling to walk off the road and up over a small rise. I wanted to feel pure snowy forest. As I crested the little hill I stopped in my tracks.
Below me was an almost perfect circle of young pine trees and down on the ground in the circle the trees formed were what must have been...50 crows.
I stood for a while just watching them. They were walking in a circle on the ground.
As I started towards them, they noticed me and flew up into the trees around the clearing where they remained. I, boldly in my young fearlessness, proceeded to walk right into the center of the circle into 'where angels fear to tread' and stood there. They were looking at me fiercely, some would perhaps say glaring, and not liking me interrupting them. I looked on the ground and saw their footprints in a circle around me in the snow. I stood there for a while and just felt. The crows were quiet. And then I asked them who they were and what they were doing.
"We are the No - Names. We are the part of you, the Formless, the Hollow, the Empty Robe that you have forsaken.
We are You, a part of you that is the Forever Quiet, Eternal Peace, Timeless Source, Empty Mother Womb, Space Itself. Your world has separated from this--it's Womb and therefore your world cannot last, or renew itself, and will come apart. It already is for those who look and see. Your current model of life for many is fearful of Emptiness, of the Womb of the Mother, of the Quiet, of the No-Thing, of Stillness. We, the No-Names are feared and labeled 'evil' when not understood. The truth is we only reflect back to you that which is already in you as help so you can refresh your selves, clean yourselves, heal-whole yourselves. You have asked to know this part of yourself again and this experience is given to you and all who wish it. Yes it is a 'privilege' as you would term it. We don't view it that way. It is automatic, no words, you are here, meant to be. Your innocent light is for us also an awakening. We also want to join back with you and your world, for we are One and the same and Original Intent is for Us to work together and Be One."
As they were speaking, I had closed my eyes and saw-felt them as me, as beings of God, of all of us, as Guardians holding Space open for Creation and as pieces of many of us that we had rejected and separated from. I saw the image of those paintings here in the Southwest of the 'empty robes' which is the connection still with these eternal parts of ourselves.
After this experience I have been interested and aware of crows over the years. Paramahansa Yogananda the Indian master who came to America in the 1920's and started Self Realization Fellowship in one of his few recorded talks speaks of White crows, so does Ramakrishna the 19th century Indian saint. And William James the famous psychologist used them as an illustration for cracking our limited logical thinking and being able to 'think outside the box'.
Surfing the Now of the 500 foot Tsunami!
In a recent TV show about Tsunamis a father and son were interviewed about having survived a 500 foot! local Tsunami in an Alaskan bay. A large portion of land had slid into the bay and created this very large wave. The father and son had 'ridden' the Tsunami to safety in their boat. Unbelievable but true. The trees had all been wiped out up to the 500 foot level is how researchers knew how high the wave had been. In perspective the Tsunami that recently hit Indonesia and caused such devastation was only about 30 feet in height.
There is only what can be done in the Now. Can we live tomorrow? Can we live the events of 1 or 5 or 20 years from now? No, of course not. We can only live this moment that is happening right now. This is why masters-teachers always talk about living for today, or living in 'the Now'. And physics starting with Einstein are now discovering that there is no such thing as 'time', that in fact everything is always only occurring in the Now. Modern physics is discovering that the Now is the gateway-opening-portal to 'other dimensions'! Wow! scientists are now talking like mystics. So when Jesus says "Take no heed for tomorrow because tomorrow will take care of itself" He's speaking a very real, powerful knowledge of universal spiritual and physical laws. The proof is in the pudding. If we use this 'living in the now' to avoid our karma, our 'duties', what needs to be done in the moment then it doesn't work and we get 'wake up calls'. Like bankruptcy, divorce, poverty, strife, war, discord, nervous disorders. When we live in the moment with Love-Source-God then we are provided for.
So, like the father and son that 'surfed' the giant Tsunami, we can also 'surf the Now' and be carried safely no matter how big the 'wave' of karma or physical manifestation is.
We love surfing. There's a whole culture built on surfing. It's because we instinctively know there's some deep truth about not fighting what is, not trying to fight the universe, or what's happening but to 'flow with it' to ride the wave of energy.
Once we're 'up and riding' it takes very little energy to 'ride the wave' of reality. In fact it is energy producing, it gives us energy, it feeds us. This is what athletes call 'the zone', or being 'in the flow'. Once we 'get ahead' of the wave in our lives it feels exhilarating, fun, adventurous.
How does this translate to real everyday life?
When we start doing what we really want to do, what our souls want to do, not what's been programmed into us, not what mom and dad wanted us to do, not what the teachers or coaches wanted us to do, not what our politicians or priests have told us to do...but what our hearts-souls-beings really want to do...then we start surfing the energy of the Universe. The game on earth is to get back there, to 'become ye as little children'. Children surf the Now all the time. Watch a child, they are very much in the Now compared to what we have mostly become as adults.
So, in practical everyday reality. We stay ahead of the curve, we allow the energy of Life to carry us, we pay the bills early, we let our bodies move when they want to, we go for the walk at sunrise or sunset, we listen to the 'still small voice' and follow it. And when we do we will notice that it takes no struggle, no effort. It really is just a decision. We tell our angels "OK I'll get up in the summertime at 5 am and go for a walk" not because we 'should' or have to in order to exercise, to get a good body, so we can look good and attract a mate but because we want to feel the new beginning of a day, the freshness of the Now in our blood, the Beginning of Life eternal...because we enjoy hearing the birds and feeling the quiet. And then our angels wake us up at 5 am. And maybe the first time we just notice and then roll over and feel really good snuggling back into sleep. That's OK. And then see if the 'want to' go for a walk early is still there. OK, then say to your angels "wake me up again and when it wants to happen by itself, when there is no struggle, do it through me, of it's own accord, ease-want to I will do it". And then it happens, naturally, easily, you find yourself walking, just watching, just being, just enjoying the Now. You can feel your spirit responding, wanting to be there.
This really works. If you haven't tried it, it can become a whole new way of living.
Just do what you really want moment to moment. Challenge the old beliefs about struggle, hard work, having to sacrifice, 'no pain no gain' etc. They're all false. God didn't create a Universe, Love didn't set it up, Beingness didn't arrange it, so that it had to be 'survival of the fittest', 'life's a bitch then you die', 'life is hard you have to fight', 'dog eat dog'.... God-Life-Source didn't set it up that way...we did. Or at least we've gone along with it. Watch, study the life's of real masters. They flow, the are taken care of, they live in the Now...forever and ever Aumen.
And when we first start attempting to live this way we often find we have a 'backlog' of 'stuff' that we've avoided and are the reason we are running from the Now, running from "Be Still and Know that I Am God", running from ourselves. This 'stuff', repressed old energies will surface, will need to be 'thrown up' and out of us. During this time, if we are sincere, God-Love-Life will absolutely take care of us. We will be 'carried' by God. We as humans have repressed, avoided, denied, suppressed for so long that the majority of us have so much energy backed up that this model of needing to unload, unburden, cleanse, throw up our old 'stuff' is the norm. So when you first try to live in the moment and the 'stuff' hits the fan this means you're on the right track. Once the 'stuff' leaves you will feel so free, so unburdened, that you will say, as most of us do, 'It was the best thing that ever happened to me'. But while you're going through it you will likely feel that it's not working all this 'spiritual mumbo jumbo', you'll want to quit and go back to your old habits and question the whole healing-awakening process. This is normal. Relax, you're a normal human being becoming the 'god' you were really intended to be.